hellloooo?
So i'm long overdue for a post. i guess i like stalking blogs more than my own. hmm... i'll give a prize for anyone who comments on here (first)! haha not that i'm desperate for readers but cuz my blog is so blahhhh. haha
Herman's farewell
It was a special night. I really got inspired by his words of wisdom. Never really got to talk to him personally but there was one and only one time where he did get to see who i was and it was NOT a pleasant one. lemme tell you.
Three years ago, i first started playing softball (yes, i got that good quickly lol) for the fellowship cup. I was playing on herman's first ever misfit team! (yeap book it!) Between innings, i sat off and so i wandered to watch the other teams play each other. i kept on doing this since the other games seemed more exciting at the time. then as i'm watching, someone tells me i'm up to bat or in the field ... happens more than 2/3 times... someone indirectly tells me that herman uttered some words to me. Seeming as though herman's quite the competitive guy, his words weren't forgiving or kind. I think i partly deserved it: one we're supposed to have fun but as a player you should stay focused on the game?!?
Herman mentioned a story. Don't remember the exact details so i'm changing the story a bit. Two friends, Herman and I, go on an adventure in the amazon. I dissed Herman. He wrote "my friend insulted me today" in the sand. Carrying on, Herman fell in quicksand and I rescued him. After he was helped to safe ground, he wrote on a rock "my friend saved me today". I asked why he chose to write that on the rock. He replied that the writings in sand will be blown away with the wind or washed away by the waves, but the writings on the rock will stay forever. I quickly learned to remember the good things and have hope and forgiveness in your friends just like jesus gave us. =)
One serman he talked about just recently was how dangerous being a pastor was. Yes, dangerous. It is spiritually and mentally taxing. He told us he doesnt have any close relationships at church besides his wife and family for the reason that he needs to keep that professional distance. Also, there's vulnerability to tell others his problems since he's a 'leader' in the church. Pastors feel lonely all the time. Herman's pretty courageous and strong. I'm certain he won't feel lonely above in heaven. And I have faith that he's forgiven me and i'll just look to better times.
Quote "Dont get mad at God when someone disappoints you, get mad at God cuz He disappointed you" - Herman?!? (not sure)
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Song of the Year
Coldplay - Speed of Sound
getting really used to their slow and boring style of music.
Current Playlist
sean paul - temperature
coldplay - talk
kanye west - heard em' say
pussycat dolls - stickwitu
50 cent - disco inferno
green day - jesus of suburbia
eminem - when i'm gone
gorillaz - feel good inc
justin timberlake - cry me a river
i love singing to mariah carey. especially those high notes that force me to squeak like a chipmunk
Wheeee!
Nothing beats slopping down 30 minute trails on a frosty mountain with the wind in your hair and carving fresh snow! can't wait to board on mt. tremblant! yeyyyee! gone jan 2-9 while u suckkaas at school! muahahaaaaa
Smile for the camera!
went to the orthodontist today since im finally getting braces. yes. braces. a week ago doctor told me i didnt have to get my wisdom teeth out but now it seems i do :( oh the torture but for the better. :)
Herman's farewell
It was a special night. I really got inspired by his words of wisdom. Never really got to talk to him personally but there was one and only one time where he did get to see who i was and it was NOT a pleasant one. lemme tell you.
Three years ago, i first started playing softball (yes, i got that good quickly lol) for the fellowship cup. I was playing on herman's first ever misfit team! (yeap book it!) Between innings, i sat off and so i wandered to watch the other teams play each other. i kept on doing this since the other games seemed more exciting at the time. then as i'm watching, someone tells me i'm up to bat or in the field ... happens more than 2/3 times... someone indirectly tells me that herman uttered some words to me. Seeming as though herman's quite the competitive guy, his words weren't forgiving or kind. I think i partly deserved it: one we're supposed to have fun but as a player you should stay focused on the game?!?
Herman mentioned a story. Don't remember the exact details so i'm changing the story a bit. Two friends, Herman and I, go on an adventure in the amazon. I dissed Herman. He wrote "my friend insulted me today" in the sand. Carrying on, Herman fell in quicksand and I rescued him. After he was helped to safe ground, he wrote on a rock "my friend saved me today". I asked why he chose to write that on the rock. He replied that the writings in sand will be blown away with the wind or washed away by the waves, but the writings on the rock will stay forever. I quickly learned to remember the good things and have hope and forgiveness in your friends just like jesus gave us. =)
One serman he talked about just recently was how dangerous being a pastor was. Yes, dangerous. It is spiritually and mentally taxing. He told us he doesnt have any close relationships at church besides his wife and family for the reason that he needs to keep that professional distance. Also, there's vulnerability to tell others his problems since he's a 'leader' in the church. Pastors feel lonely all the time. Herman's pretty courageous and strong. I'm certain he won't feel lonely above in heaven. And I have faith that he's forgiven me and i'll just look to better times.
Quote "Dont get mad at God when someone disappoints you, get mad at God cuz He disappointed you" - Herman?!? (not sure)
***
Song of the Year
Coldplay - Speed of Sound
getting really used to their slow and boring style of music.
Current Playlist
sean paul - temperature
coldplay - talk
kanye west - heard em' say
pussycat dolls - stickwitu
50 cent - disco inferno
green day - jesus of suburbia
eminem - when i'm gone
gorillaz - feel good inc
justin timberlake - cry me a river
i love singing to mariah carey. especially those high notes that force me to squeak like a chipmunk
Wheeee!
Nothing beats slopping down 30 minute trails on a frosty mountain with the wind in your hair and carving fresh snow! can't wait to board on mt. tremblant! yeyyyee! gone jan 2-9 while u suckkaas at school! muahahaaaaa
Smile for the camera!
went to the orthodontist today since im finally getting braces. yes. braces. a week ago doctor told me i didnt have to get my wisdom teeth out but now it seems i do :( oh the torture but for the better. :)
1 Comments:
At 12/16/2005 1:49 AM,
jayao said…
=o didnt expect anyone to comment so soon yet alone you. honestly my first thought of a prize was saying "JESUS LOVES YOU!" lol though it ain't nuthin tangible, but nevertheless i'll give u a prize =)
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